0017.) why was I ever born? no one even likes me. and the ones that think they do, don’t know who I am. i don’t have any talent. it’s not like i’m going to make a difference in life or in anything. i don’t really see a point in my existence. ha ha my entire life is like a sad joke. ha ha ha….
I’m going to just disappear for a long time. Start over in a new city where absolutely no one knows me. Ill get rid of Facebook.delete all my old numbers. Basically itd be like I deleted myself out of everyone ones life. I’m sick of not being happy and seeing it all around me. It’s just a matter of time before im a wrinkle in his life. I don’t know where I’ll go but I’m planning on it soon.
- Me: *gets on bus* omg everyone is watching me and judging me and they're going to laugh when the bus starts and im not sitting down, omg dont put your ticket in the wrong way or everyone will judge you and laugh at you.
- Me: *goes to pay for shopping* omg what if I dont have enough money? *counts money out 20 times* what if I look stupid, or say the wrong thing? am I standing in the right spot even? What if someone else wants to get past and im in the way, omg.
- Me: *says hey to someone online* omg, they arent replying, holy shit why am I so annoying? what if they tell their friends how annoying and lame I am? Why am I like this, holy shit.
- Me: *meets someone new* What if they dont like me and dont want me to be around, I shouldnt have met them, im going to be a burden, they're probably critisizing me right now, why am I the way I am?